Here we are on my 8th week of Isolation. It won’t be forgotten, as we were told on the daily briefing report on my birthday 23rd March. Well I say that, I still have terrible memory lapses post chemo. As the weeks have gone on, I was coping okay. Catching up on a lot of crafting things that were neglected for most of the last year due to bowel cancer, and treatments, and my inability to motivate myself. For some reason this week, a black cloud has engulfed me, bringing severe anxiety, lots of tears, and bad thoughts of the past few years, and an unknown future.
I was feeling so positive after coming back from my trip to India and Singapore, although the corona virus was starting to escalate in Singapore, I was staying near the airport and taking a taxi to my longed for trip to ‘Singapore zoo’, and being as safe as I could be, because ‘Im going to the zoo, and that’s that’!!! I had been walking, even though I had still been having neuropathy problems, practicing yoga, and eating better. I was looking forward to going home and starting a fresh…….. And feeling lucky I got home, as the flights from Singapore stopped two days later.
I moved to an Airbnb near my family so as not to infect my dad who I wanted to stay with, little did we know it was to become our very extended shielding period. We were doing pretty good, with my family doing our shopping, just as well as we could not get a delivery slot for most of that time. Baking became a trend, until we couldn’t get any ingredients to bake with. I think the black mood began two weeks before, when my daughter Lucy insisted on calling the paramedics as I was starting to feel really unwell with my heart arrhythmia’s. I’m not going to lie, I was more afraid of the paramedic coming in and taking me away, than potentially having some kind of heart failure. it was enough to give me heart failure!! As it was she was back on her shift after a couple of days off, and I was her first patient at midnight, in her freshly cleaned uniform. No one was calling for an ambulance. She stayed with me for an hour or so, then I had to sign a form as I was refusing to go to hospital. ‘You little rebel…you’.
I was feeling a bit better by the Monday so the craft stash came out and Ideas of what I could do. I made up template to make a poster for children whilst they were off school from my ‘Little wee whimsical stencil’. I wanted to perhaps raise some money for ‘Bowel cancer UK’, and ‘Bowel and cancer research’. As I say Im a non-tech, so its taken me weeks to get it off the ground to even attach a download. But ‘Yay’ I’v done it and feel proud of myself. I have actually started to make some little tutorial videos. something I have wanted to do for a long time. I came across a stop motion tutorial via @xantheberkeley, someone who I had done a mini film making courses previously. Highly recommended. I consider myself now, as a non-tech person, a little bit clever. Although the mini film making was put aside, as at the time, I had been told my cancer had gone further than first diagnosed, and was trying to get my head around having to go through chemotherapy. Lost in my own little world. Everything got put on the back burner, my dream, my creativity, my website, my blog, went to wrack and ruin, everything I was slowly building up. Ten months later, Im only just picking it all up. But I’m hoping there no stopping me….. being that time is on my side right now. If you want to download the sheet, it’s on the home page with a button I created…. ‘Download’ ….Tah-Dah !! Be a lockdown maker.
Every day being shut in is becoming a challenge so I might as well turn it into a positive. As my son is always telling me there is this thing called ‘The web’ with ‘Google’ and ‘Youtube’ apparently it can teach you anything. Does it teach you how do clamber out of a black hole? Well mindful crafting it is then.
So now I’m off for my next lesson…. attempting to put music to my videos….eeek. Hey before long I will be tech nana, as well as @thegutsynana
I started making my dad a a scrapbook story of him and my mum as a keepsake of their wedding. I will add to it when they started their little family…. aka myself, Paul my brother and Bridgette my sister. My mum loved greens and peacock blue shades so i decided to do the theme around that dropping in a few different snippets of colour. I have made the book out of my own ‘whimsical story book’ from mdf. I am trying really hard this year to stop using baby/wet wipes. They are by far the easiest, but not the best for adding plastic pollution to the sea and the species who live there, and until deemed safe, and plastic free I have been using gauze, cutting it up into strips,and also have also used muslin squares cut it into smaller squares, and just wash and dry them.
I have used DecoArt media fluid in turquoise, white and a little yellow green light. I didn’t prime the mdf as i wanted a more weathered look. I wet the cloth and started with turquoise, let it dry, added a bit of green, then white until i got the colour i wanted. I made a little frame and stamped their names onto a piece of handmade paper and added a couple of small brads to create a picture effect. I used the whimsical stencil and ‘Cosmic shimmer’ sparkle texture paste in ‘Frosty dawn’ to add dimension I cut out some little rectangles using a die and letters for ‘The story of ‘ and drew little strings with a white pen. I went round the edges in frayed burlap distress oxide and attached the letters onto the card, then on to the front of the book. I also used the distress oxide pad round the edges of the cover. I covered a heart in the matching paper to the birds and ran round the edge with a nail file.
Rustic nature papers for inside page / whimsical storybook
As i have a hole in the middle of the front cover I decided to use patterned paper. I bought a 12 x 12 paper pad called ‘Rustic nature’ with birds (my mums favourite) feathers and flowers in some lovely colours from ‘The Works’ It was a bargain at £3.00. It has 24 sheets, double sided, 230gsm and acid free. I cut the card 7.5″ square as the book is 8″ square I used a sheet with flowers and birds, cut out the extra flowers and attached them on top. I cut out some extra birds and did the same with one peeking under the front flower. I covered a heart in the matching paper to the birds and ran round the edge with a nail file. And added a piece of string as if the little birdie is off making a nest.
Taking into account I’m now 55, and not in an age of being brought up with computers, mobile phones and anything else technical, with children who appear to be more clever than me. I pat myself on the back as i have raised them. I am forever asking them questions of technical things i know nothing about, I have had an array of answers: ‘There is a big thing out there called ‘The web’, or ‘Youtube’, and ‘Audible’ where you can listen and learn about stuff, thats how i try to roll now. I stumbled across this quote I couldn’t help but send it to them.
Well, where do i start….. oh my, this has been something else. I actually had the shopping cart added in July. I have had two items added to start me off, so when you go onto my website….yes i have two sets of items for sale. Well, we are now in December, it hasn’t been for lack of trying, when you don’t know what you are doing and spend hours, because i have, trying to add items to it and is all gobbledy gook to me.I have no idea what all these boxes are on wordpress, divi, and woo commerce. Yes i have been tearing my hair out, crying with frustration, leaving it for weeks on end because i can’t face another failure, but hey, along came my friend Lacey and gave me a lesson ( thanks Lacey) it was sooo appreciated. I thought i had wrapped it all up. Well, actually after she had gone i spent the best part of 5 hours adding all my photos to my gallery editing and re-sizing them, putting all the tags on, felt super pleased with myself, updated, came out of the page without the save & exit and voila, they all went back where they came from. Screeeeeeem. So i thought no, keep calm, and go to bed and start a fresh tomorrow.
I have finally managed to achieve everything i did last night, and SAVE & EXIT….yay. And not just that i have done all my content for each product (Still on draft) no you can’t see it yet!!! until I’m completely ready which i hope will be any time now!
And failures are good aren’t they? You can only get better!
I have to say i think i am on my way to being able to build a website….. hahaha.
Planning……… It has not been something I really thought about until the last year or so. I had no idea It was a tool, but my hectic life has been reminding me otherwise. I rarely used to do lists as I always thought I would remember, but my brain loved playing games with me. A year ago I thought I was developing dementia, I started to feel worried as I just couldn’t remember anything, and It made me feel as if I was losing my mind. I used to make jokes with my family about It, or rather they used to make jokes about me. I was referred to a specialist, had an MRI scan, and was relieved it was all fine. The problem was, my blood wasn’t going round my body and my head the way it should because my heart wasn’t functioning properly. It has now been repaired, but unfortunately I still appear to have memory loss, so I’m going to put It down to my age!
So getting back to planning… I started by buying a planner for the beginning of the year, we all have good Intentions of starting the year with good thoughts and plans and then……… we forget. I have been filling my planner in, sometimes I forget, or I’m too busy to look and see what I have planned, and that Is where I slip up. Recently I have tried my hardest to keep up with it after having a bit of a fall at my first craft fair. I was very disorganised and forgot to do this and that, trying to get everything ready at the last minute, which didn’t really work and added so much stress to the whole thing. It was a big learning curve and I think it has taught me a bit of a lesson because since coming back I felt I needed to take stock with things that haven’t gone very well, and start planning ahead, and being more organised (which is going to be a job in Itself). My son has reminded me that if you plan your day the evening before you are 25% more productive the next day. So that is where the planner comes in, my 15 minute nightly ritual, I just have to learn to adhere to It.
a list or chart with information that is an aid to planning.
“my day planner”
If you don’t fail, you will never be successful. Don’t lose faith.
Don’t fear failure, fear being In the exact same place next year as you are today.
Note to self: Don’t give up. You at a different place, and further than you were last year, so look forward, and keep on planning.